Thoughts from Lucy

If anyone is reading this who has done the IB or is doing or will be doing it, this post is for you.

The IB... hmm where to begin

Its one of those courses that is different for everyone, depending on which school you are in and what your courses are and what your expectations are.

At the moment i take:
Higher Level: Theatre, English A1, Geography
Standard Level: Maths, Biology, French B

I think for me, these choices are acctually the best, because i am not constantly pulled down with work. I mean in my school the school day is really long, 8:30 - 5:00 and this really is a bummer at times. However there is a positive side, having 10 periods a day allows around 12 free periods to work. I dont know about you but i think i work much better when i am at school than when i am at home so this is great, esspecially as we have such a great library to work in.

However i take a look at some of my friends and they are really dragged down by it. There are some people you know are in school because their parents have made them.

I have the opinion that if one doesnt think school is the best thing for them, they shouldnt be doing it. I mean some people arent very academic yet extremely talented. For example Lilly Allen. She left school at 15 and that woman inspires me, shes so funny and down to earth and has made some great records.

i think less pressure should be put on us to finish our education for the following reasons:
1. Generally if we feel like we are being forced to do something, we want the hell out of there so quickly. so i think that if students felt as though they were given the option of not carrying on with their education and they decide themselves to continue, they will always know that they are doing it for themselves, for no one else.
2. There are so many people who would rather start their life at 16 than continue with their education, i think they should be given the chance without the disrespectful looks people give them

Maybe im wrong. Maybe young people need the extra push and pressure. Maybe its just the feeling that is created amoungst International Schools. Having only gone to primary school in england myself.

Let me know what you think.

So i have been with my boyfriend for about 5 months, and i just dont know what to make of it.
i love him, i love our relationship. but there is always something annoying either him or me. mostly him. it's like, he wants to spend time with me, and when he does he feels guilty that hes not with his mates. when hes with his mates he feels guilty that hes not with me. Tell me how am i suposed to help with this problem? its kind of rediculous because no matter what he has he always feels guilty. 'the grass is always greener' situation. Possibly not, is he being selfish? or is he just trying desperately to find the balance. We talked last night about what we feel about our relationship and it was really confusing because its like, he loves me, he wants me, but he's got so much other stuff going on that he gets distracted by me and that frustrates me. This guy is a 'gamer' or whatever you call it... a 'cyberathlete' which sounds like bollocks if you ask me. but its like he wastes SO many hours playing counterstrike when he could be doing work. why does he feel guilty hes not working when hes with me? and not when hes uselessly shooting people on the internet? i dont really undersdand.

anyway hes going away soon he will be in Nepal helping out in a few orphanages for about two weeks, which is an amazing experience for him but i will really miss him =(

and boys say girls are confusing....

Gosh people go through some bad things. I dont know, but not everyone has to deal with these horrid things... do they? Reading other people's blogs is so interesting, i mean its alright you say you know your friends and what their lives are like, but on blogs you really can see what they feel its fascinating...
i think this blog site is so useful especially for teens with issues, its kind of like a release system, its like an online diary that talks back to you if you want it to be. its also a tool to discuss any news, or anything that intregues you, with people. i started this blog a couple of days ago just so see what it is like i guess. i dont want people at school to read this necessarily. i find its nice to have people read your blogs who wont judge you...

I suppose I should be an expert on this topic. I have had my fair share of boyfriends. My mother once said to me that I need to have someone, I am just one of those people who always needs to have a boyfriend for whatever reason. I wasn’t sure what to think of that, should I be offended? Am I really that dependant on my someone else? Am I not strong enough to be on my own? I honestly don't know. Its true I haven't gone very long without a boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, its not because I need someone sexually at all, having stayed with someone for nearly 9 months and not done a thing. I think its more of the emotional support I need. I love to have someone to talk to, who I can tell anything and always rely on. But more importantly I love to love. I am with someone now and I am completely besotted with him, we are both crazy about each other and have had talks about living together in the future, you get the picture.
Even though I love to love, I have been hurt so badly in the past. Beyond what one could imagine, have you ever fallen in love and had your heart completely ripped apart? It sounds silly, 'I'm young!', 'Boys are just for fun at this age'. But the feelings we get are so real, we believe in the stupidest things and we worship love, its the most exciting thing in this horrid period of pressure and exams. So one has to watch one's self, when falling in love.
I get asked by many of my friends, ''how do you know your 'In love'?'', ''maybe you just love him, there is a difference between the two, you know!''. Well to be perfectly honest, what I feel is so intense sometimes that it's what i believe now and maybe when I grow up and time changes my feelings will change but what matters is now.

Me? I'm just an ordinary girl in an alien environment, struggling through school and trying to master this crazy world. I have a decent life, I am in my penultimate year of school. I'm taking the IB which is the International Baccalaureate. I live in Switzerland with my family but I'm originally English, born and raised in London. I suppose you could say I'm a typical adolescent with big dreams, my ultimate career aspiration would be to be involved in musical theatre. But we shall see if that will ever happen. I decided to start a blog because I sometimes feel the urge to write, my boyfriend's mother has her own blog site, so i thought i might as well try.